Barbara Nanyonga

I am tired, I have overworked my body, mind, and soul. It's time to let go. It's so hard to let go of something I was once so passionate about, but every season has its chapter; and this one needs to end.

I would be lying if i told you that 2018 wasn't hard for me. I completely lost control of everything, it seemed like everything was going great, and then reality hit me and things went crashing down. Despite that, I learned a lot about myself, life and people. It was hard, and so many people were relying on me for things, that I just simply couldn't give them. I know it may sound very dramatic, but my life felt like an endless spiral, taking loss after loss.

No matter how hard I tried, it seemed like nothing was going to change. 
It's okay if you don't know where you're going. None of us do. This is for anyone who had a plan, that isn't going to plan. I'm here to reassure you, that most of the time, things don't go to plan. The biggest lesson I've learned having lived twenty-four years; is that we can plan for the future all we want, but when it comes down to it, the universe or God in my case is the ultimate decider of things.

Trust me. This was a freaking difficult lesson to learn, I mean-I went from wanting to be a lawyer to working in digital marketing. Things change, people, grow, and I'm guessing God wanted me to work in an industry that allowed me more creative freedom.

Lately, I've been wondering why God would put me in certain situations, just to take them away?

The scariest thing about being an adult, is looking at your peers succeed and wondering why you haven't reached that stage in life yet? Why am I not on this salary? Why can't I have those same opportunities and experiences? Again, I can hear my peers at church saying that "comparison is the biggest thief of joy". It's true, but I don't like to think of it like that; when I'm going through a rocky road.

Looks can be deceiving because I couldn't count how many people I've spoken to who are struggling. We live in a society where looking like you have your shit together, is favoured over the deep cries for help. I will remind you again. Most people who look like they've got their shit together, probably don't; and are probably crying for someone to come to their refuge. 
 I was gone, but now I'm back. September was an interesting month. I had the opportunity to be part of some pretty amazing things; eat delicious food, and talk to some amazing people. I fly out next month and hope my trip will be a great getaway.

Here are some photos of me dressed up and fancy, the Tate Modern, eating my favourite pizza; and watching the Young Giants for the first time, which was an incredible btw. The whole session made me feel like I was floating, it was a very surreal experience. I would defo recommend seeing them in person. Oh, and I must not forget. I ruined a wedding proposal at London Bridge. That's a story for another time LOL!
I think I want to be a lot more emotive with this blog, so get ready for a series of emotions! Life is more than just about looking pretty and eating descent. I want my words to have substance, stop hearing me and start listening to what I have to say. Anyways, I won't make this long, I hope life is Gucci wherever you are! All my love B x
Eat Pray Love, is probably the best advice I could give anyone on this rainy day in London. Sometimes, it's good to just kick back, relax and take in the environment. I'm so grateful for all the people I have in my life, whether that be family or friends. Know that you are loved and cherished!

If you want me at my best catch me on a Sunday! It's been another long and exhausting week in the life of Barbara, I'm trying to get my life together and figure out what exactly I want to do with myself. But, hey I'm too blessed to be stressed! In the great words of Willow Smith "Life will stress you and bless you." This is me being pretty in pink sporting my Sunday best if I'm going to turn up for anybody you better believe it will be God. Until next time kids! I hope you have a great week!

Andrea in all her glory serving the Lord and looking good whilst doing it! I am so proud of this girl serving a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints for 18 months.  She's doing freaking incredible and I know she's going to touch many lives, and let people know that God is real and he is listening.
I'm officially 24 years old! I had the most chill, most humbling birthday weekend and I am so grateful to God and my family and friends for all the sacrifices they took to make my day special. Know that I am not only grateful but extremely thankful for all of you. I hope this year I really get to shine and make something of myself in all aspects of life. Here's to a year of 24 karat magic!
I've been struggling. I was about to call it quits, then God intervened in and sent me a guardian angel, which completely changed my mindset about everything. It is so easy to give up when things don't look like they're going the way you expected. But, God is always there to remind us that he is ultimately the one in control, and I am so thankful for his interventions in life. I'm learning to stop asking "why?" and start asking what are you trying to teach me? Life is hard, and people can make it difficult, but the moment you feel like giving up, is when you need to grind and hustle like your life depends on it. Some people don't want you to shine, or see you reach your full potential. You will meet these people in all walks of life, and God has taught me, to not let conflict of interest intervene in the pursuit of achieving greatness!

There will be bumpy roads, reaching your goal will be difficult. Never give up, and always remember to look back at life and see how far you've come, whenever you feel like giving up.

Remember the devil works hard but God works harder.

I am currently struggling to put my thoughts together and it's so frustrating.  Hey guys! It's me again back from a super long hiatus. I've wanted to write a blog post for the longest time, but just haven't been able to collect my thoughts together and write it in a way that made sense. It's super frustrating that I only come here when I'm either super high or super low in life and completely forget to share all the in-between. 

Where have I been? The answer is nowhere LOL, the past couple of months have been an array of weird and wonderful experiences. No, I didn't go on any special retreat or anything, but since I've had some free time, I've had the opportunity to sit back and reflect on life. Where am I going? What am I doing? Is this really for me? type of questions.

I'm going to keep this short and simple, life's kind of foggy at the moment and I'm not quite sure where I'm going, if I'm making the right decisions and if my decisions will lead to the outcomes that I want in life. I'm having a handful of c'est la vie moments because I honestly just don't know anymore.

Anyway, the point of this post was to assure you that I'm still alive!
Iceland was beautiful and it took the most of my pocket! Your girl is currently living the epitome of living her "best broke life." But hey, that's not what this blog post is about, so sit back enjoy the photos.  Here's how to do Iceland on a budget!
We landed in Iceland at 11:00pm after almost three hours of travelling, we still had an extra two hours in the car. Thank God for Chandler and Nicole, for kindly driving our butts everywhere. I'm forever grateful! Day one of our trip would include the Secret Lagoon and some small hikes. If you're going hiking it's best to carry a small backpack with a first aid kit, a water bottle and some painkillers. For some reason, the elevation was really messing with my head and breathing, luckily for me, I had a little rescue bag that legit saved my life, because your girl was gonna pass out on various occasions. Oh and by the way the closest hospital was six hours away LOL. 
When people say Iceland is expensive, believe them! LOOL Iceland is seriously a place for the rich and famous! if I had not pre-planned to live off cereal bars and various combinations of water, I would've died! Dramatic? YES! But I'm not kidding when I say that if you don't save up for a trip to Iceland, you're screwed. So here's a word of advice, if you're going to Iceland go with a large group of people so you can spread out your expenses and pray you all don't die of hunger, but if you do it alone, please write back to me so I can revise this blogpost.
If you love meat then you're in for a serious shock. Meat is a luxury item here like I don't think any animals other than sheep, lamb and ponies live in Iceland, which explains why beef costs £1000000. I'd recommend going vegan or vegetarian for the duration of your trip; because it's one hundred times cheaper than buying meat. Shop for food that will fill you up and can stretch your energy, so make sure you have your grains your carbs, veggies and of course your cereal bars. Eating out can be pretty expensive, so if you do go out to a restaurant make sure it's worth the coins.
Iceland is famous for things like the Blue Lagoon, and trust me your girl wanted to go, but I was not about to pay the price of my plane ticket to spend only 1hr there on a Sunday. Should I have done it for the IG? Of course! But until the Instagram drops the gram in my bank account, I won't be stunting for social media LOL. My girl Sai came through with the alternative plan and we were heading to the Secret Lagoon, almost the same experience for a fraction of the price. There are so many beautiful free hikes you can see, that won't mean forking out £100s of pounds or have you asking yourself did I really just drop £70 for IG likes? Oh, another thing about Iceland, that I think Y'all should know about, is that petrol is freaking crazy expensive! Basically, like finding a diamond or liquid gold. You'll be in the 100s before you know it. 
You're probably wondering about the abandoned DC plane, right? Your girl was pumped I was ready for my close up and everything, but the weather decided to be hella cranky, Mother Earth was not playing, and to make things worse it was a 4hr hike. We weren't really prepared for it to be honest, and since our time was very limited, we had to question whether making this trip was worth a 1/4 of our day. Another reminder also is that PETROL in Iceland is hella expensive! Overall Iceland was fun, loved the scenery, company and having the opportunity to see more of God's planet! It was nice getting out of London. God is good, life is Gucci and I can't wait for the next adventure!
I hate to be one of those people who blog more when things are a bit crappy, but hey this is real life, and it can't always be all that and a bag of chips. I'm human and I am allowed to have those shitty days, and most importantly I want people to be able to relate to my life. Although it's fun taking pretty pictures and making sure things are OCD perfect. Sometimes life is just a mess, like my hair at the moment, but anyways that's beside the point. I'm having a rough day, so I thought I'd treat myself to a face mask and one of the doughnuts I stole from my sister Krispie Kreme box.

Beyonce Lemonade album taught me that when life gives you lemons, you make some bomb ass lemonade, and drink that shit up! It won't take away the problems, but it will definitely make things sort of better!
I feel old and like time is finally catching up with my old ass lol.  I had a small get together for my birthday, and it went so well. We laughed, sang ate a lot of food and enjoyed each others company. I honestly could not be more grateful for the people I have in my life, you have all gotten me through some of the best and worst of times. As I grow older, I am starting to realise that all I really love is my bed and my mom, I really am sorry. Oh and my friends of course! 

I am so grateful to God, for getting me through chapter 22 of my life. I honestly would not have been able to get through it without him. I’ve had some seriously crazy and emotional breakdowns, to be honest, but I am so so so so grateful for the life lessons and many new opportunities he has pushed into my life.  So to God, thank you for always being the real ride or die in my life!

Now I want to confess to the world that chapter 23 be a year of growth, success, travel and love!
I am very much alive, I have just been super busy with life and work and everything. January was an amazing month. I started my new job and got a whole new perspective of where I'm going and who I want to become this year. I really I hope I will be able to prove myself and stick to this job, I am so grateful to have been given the opportunity to work for such an amazing company, but the purpose of this blog post isn't to go off on a rampage about work and yada yada yada.

Last year I thought I was a complete loser, I was unhappy with my job and very unsatisfied with my life, and to make matters worse. I lost my job at such an inconvenient time, but you know what not all failure is a bad thing. If I had not lost my job I wouldn't be in the position I am in now, I don't know where I'm going or what God has planned for me, but I am so grateful for everything he has put in my path! January you treated me well, February let's hope it's a month of growth!
It's crazy to think that we are finally in the first chapter of 2018. I'll be turning 23 this year I'm still waiting for Kanye West to drop his dis-track. Prince Harry and Megan Markle are getting married, and the countdown for Game of Thrones begins!

I am so ready for this year and ready to work my ass off and fill up my bank account. I'm ready to make that shmoney. Honestly, this is my year to become evolutionary! Last year was mad crazy like I did a lot and lost a lot but I most defiantly grew a lot. I signed myself up for what I thought would be a great start to my career, bahaha the biggest lie to have ever encountered my life in 2017. I wasted nine months of my life working for someone who never showed value for my work, and that is probably the biggest regret of 2017 for me.  But I will not let that person take up any more of this blog post.

Moving on swiftly, I got to do a lot of amazing things, for one I got to travel to the States again and it was a trip of a lifetime! I honestly miss every part of that trip. I met some of the coolest people ever, like for real one thing I can defiantly take away from this year was the fact that I was blessed to be in the presence of some of the most amazing people. Thia year ended on a high note, and I honestly cannot thank God or my family and friends for everything and the endless support! I am so so grateful for each and every single one of you.

There was a lot of uncertainty in my life for the past couple of months, but now I have a clearer vision of who I am and where I am heading. I'm so ready to fuck shit up and achieve greatness, to anyone reading this. I wish you a successful 2018, may you hustle hard and work endlessly to achieve the greatness you hope to witness this year, until next time!
My mom is my rock and foundation, and honestly one of the most humble and selfless women I have ever encountered in life. I hope that one day I can be just as incredible as my mom. Thank you for your countless sacrifices and your endless love. I hope 2018 will bless you with richness in health, life and love you deserve it all and more. Thank you for your patience, love and kindness. Happy birthday to the best mother in the universe! 
So I was recently made redundant from my internship. I know it sucks, and the worst thing is I only had three months left, but you know what I've decided to take this as a blessing more so than a downfall. I came back from holiday and felt an overwhelming amount of sadness, and it wasn't  that holiday blues feeling. I genuinely wasn't looking forward to going back to work. My first day back I told my mom that I needed to look for a new job because I realised that working in such a toxic environment wasn't worth it anymore, and honestly if anything maybe this internship being cut short, was God's way of forcefully making me look for a something new. My experience taught me that no amount of money should take away your dignity. If a job is going to change you let it be of growth and progress. If your boss doesn't value your time, talent or opinion then go find someone that will, and remember to keep the client at the centre of everything. Put in and give them your 100%, and you'll see it benefit you in the long run. Stand up for what you believe, and most importantly your personal well-being should be put at the centre of everything. There's a difference in not wanting to go to work and being sad the weekend is over. I honestly believe that if the thought of going to work seems like a nightmare, then you should find another job. Obviously, this is different for everyone because of circumstances, but you get where I'm going. The motto that I live by is "Do what you love, and you'll never have to work a day in your life."

Being made redundant sucks, but you know what I know God has bigger plans for me!
Hello, fellow beings! It's your girl B, back from the sunny valleys of California. Home to Hollywood's finest and the city of Angels. Your girl got to live all your childhood dreams and more.  Join me on my adventure as I play in Lauren Conrad's backyard.

Oh, and it doesn't stop there! Let's not forget, I got to live every kid's dream, known as the happiest place on Earth. London’s seriously got nothing on Mickey's crib!

To finish off my lavish trip, I got to indulge on West Coasts famous In N Out burger, whilst you're eating your Big Mac, let me tell you about me indulging on a fresh batch of animal fries.

LOOOOOL! Okay now that I am over my non-socialite life, California was beautiful and so surreal. Waking up and going to the beach is honestly a life I could get used to, the beaches are beautiful and so are the people! Golden grains of sand and beautiful glassy water. Winter doesn't exist here because the sun is always out!

Thank you so much to the Wade's for opening your home, and making sure that it was always a great time. I cannot ever put it into words the amount of love that I have for you both. You treat me so well, and I just want to let you know that your girl has always got your back, and sister Wade your son Tyler is super hot if you're reading this. We also got to live my childhood dream and my 21st Birthday, an explored the wonderful world of Disney.

Nick, Meghan and Miriam thank you so much for surprising me with this trip. I truly appreciate it! You'll never understand just how grateful I am for the love that I have been washed with whilst on this trip! That's it, for now, guys and gals! Until next time!!
This trip has been so amazing. I’ve learnt so much about myself that I didn’t expect. Utah will forever have a special place in my heart, simply because of the lessons, this place teaches me. You know you’ve had a great holiday when leaving the people is difficult. I’ve met so many different people from so many different walks of life, and I’ve honestly enjoyed learning every individual story. I am sad that my time here has come to an end, but the relations with these incredible people shall continue.

If anything travelling has taught me that you can’t put a price tag on the experiences life will teach you. If you’re going to go broke make sure it’s because of travelling. Utah is great for anyone looking for a cheap outdoorsy holiday. There are so many sites to visit! Temple Square is perfect for your typical Mormon, but even beyond that there are so many fun things to do, and no lie the mountains will literally take your breath away St. George, although I have not been able to explore yet, is a beautiful desert land with beautiful red rock, and if your a Disney fan this is where the movie Cars was located in. Food is cheap so eating out is no biggie and not to forget Sundance.

Make sure to visit Sundance that place is a real treat for the eyes. Despite the beautiful views, what really made it for me on this trip was definitely the people! Thank you to everyone for all the overwhelming love that was poured my way! Nate, you are the man I owe you Nando's thank you for housing us in your place. It was honestly so fun meeting your housemates they're freaking awesome! You have a great selection of friends. Sorry correction AMAZING!






No literally this title has never been so fitting for the month of September. Rise n shine it's a new dawn it's a new day it's a new life and I'm feeling good. So Why do I love September you ask? Your girls going on holiday yaaaaas! I honestly cannot begin to fathom or comprehend how grateful I am to God for this, it honestly would not be possible without him! I get to visit two states California and Utah can I get a yaaaaaaaas! Okay now that my fan grilling is kinda over let's commence with the rest of the month's shenanigans. It's crazy to think where I am right now, LOOL I am honestly going on as if I just became a multimillionaire, but I am so proud with the very little I have achieved from last year I am nowhere near where I want to be, but I am getting there. Guys let this September be a month of joy, success and laughter. Here's to the month of September! 
For me, a girl boss is 100% unapologetic. She is confident with I and self and does not require societies say on what makes a woman. She does not possess masculine features because her role on earth is separate to man.  The term "bitch" cannot be used to describe her, instead, she is confident and powerful. Her beauty is not only of the exterior but interior. The term 'feminist' cannot be attached to a girl boss, because this term does not fight for all women. Our problems go beyond walking topless. Instead, she  fights for womanhood, because all women matter. A girl boss will not apologise for her educated mind, or her feminine attributes. A girl boss is not against man but works with him. Women are the queens of earth, like God we bring life and we can also take it away. The wo in women comes from our ability to wow mankind with our minds, do not be attracted by the makeup on my face, the size of my waist or the length of my hair. For these are things that will fade in time. Let the wo in women come from my ability to wow you with my intelligence. For these are the things that make a GIRL BOSS!

Okay I am not your gushy type of girl at all, but these two make me so happy, and so in love with love. The very first time I saw Leanda and Greg together I knew that they were in it for the long run. It's honestly one of the most beautiful things, seeing two people that are so compatible with each other, come together through the union of marriage. I honestly feel so happy and privileged to have been able to share such a sacred moment with these two. To the beautiful bride and groom wishing you many more years of joy happiness and love. 
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